The nights you remember as the loneliest may be the nights God remembers holding you the closest. His presence has never depended on whether you could feel it.

God: I want to talk to you about that night.

You: Which night?

God: The one you thought you had to survive by yourself.

You: I remember.

My presence has never depended on whether you could feel it

Jacqueline Whitney

God: I know. You still think of it as the night everything fell apart.

You: It felt like it.

God: I remember something different. I remember the moment you chose to keep going, even though nothing around you had changed yet. You thought no one saw that, but I did.

You: I didn’t feel like you were there.

God: My presence has never depended on whether you could feel it. Some of the deepest work I do happens in the seasons that feel the loneliest.

You: So I wasn’t alone?

God: You never were. And one day, you’ll look back at that night and realize it wasn’t the beginning of your ending. It was the beginning of your becoming.

Jacqueline Whitney is the author Held: A 50 Day Devotional For Parents and All That You Deserve.